Moving this post to Blogger from FB. Not right to just take it down. This one's deep. I apologize for my Baby for this but Mom is just pissed yesterday =) But today the answer went through. Wow it was fast! So this one's just a copy of my rant... it's all good now =)
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I cant remember the last time I rant on FB. I'm not even sure if I ever ranted on FB! But the news today made me switch into a Freakin' Mad Woman and I don't like it one bit!
But my anger has subsided. Thank you for all the wonderful people that surrounded me. They have always helped me kept my cool.
However, the writer in me just can't let it go until I write something about this weird roller coaster ride that you put me through yet again. Bottom line, today I refused to keep quite. This will be the first and hopefully the last. FB might not be the best avenue for this but the craziness of your action deserves an FB applaud! Some might raise an eyebrow... but for sure some would understand. Who knows this might inspire someone and it might also be a lesson to some.
For the record, I'm writing this with a clear head along with this quote... =)
"Five, four, three... my anger is in a purple balloon and I let it go." - Therapist Glenn (Jennifer Aniston – Cougar Town)
So here goes, I never referred to you as the ONLY monster in the story. I understand that it's a 2 way street. I only speak of the truth. I let you walked away and I respected your decision. I never created a scene to embarrass you. I never stalked or even asked for you to come back. I respected your parents, your family and the people that surrounded us all this time. That's how I valued you and respected you as a person and as the Father of my child.
But what you just did is again way below the belt. Isn't it enough that you broke my heart into pieces and left me with nothing but self doubt? Seriously you turn out to be one hell of a jerk! Did you ever wondered what happened to you?
I've been through hell and back. I'm finally living my life. I have accepted the things that I can't control. I have forgiven you for crying out loud! So why be an asshole still? Why do you keep on pushing my buttons? You should Stop. Because to be honest the joke is on you!
You give no respect to me, to what we had, and specially to Gwen. You just declared an all out war … and Guess what you will forever wonder if I'm going to do something about it... or maybe I'm already doing something about it... or maybe not... Man that's one stressful thought that you will forever go through! One things for sure I will never again satisfy your Pathetic Ego. I will sit back and watch the outcome of your well-thought out plan. I honestly hope that it will turn out fine and great even... because if not, it will be one disaster that you will forever regret. You won't hear anything from me but you will definitely remember my face and how sarcastic I can be and you know you wont be able to handle it.
I've always wanted to say this but feels like I'm being unfair and bitter but your actions just validated the fact that "It Sucks to be You right now!".
This whole thing that you put me through AGAIN made me realized that I'm on the right track. And surprisingly I feel so much better. So Thank You and Good Luck to you!
Tomorrow's another day. Lets look forward to that shall we? You are still on my Prayers. May God lead you to the right path. And please HELP Yourself!
On a lighter side here's some food for the soul =)
*Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. -Deuteronomy 31:6
*Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. -1 Corinthians 16:13
*Above all, don't lie to yourself. The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point that he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. And having no respect he ceases to love.” - Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov
*Respect was invented to cover the empty place where love should be. - Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina
*True strength is keeping everything together when everyone expects you to fall apart. - Unknown
*Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. - Ambrose Redmoon
*Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes. – Maggie Kuhn, Social Activist
*Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. - Unknown
*Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. -Psalm 46:10
*The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. -Psalm 18:2
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