My Angel turns 4

Dear Gwen,

A week ago when I was flying back to Manila, I had the chance to look at the clouds. I normally would pick the aisle seat because of my bladder control issue :) but that time I get to enjoy the window seat. I was amazed! It wasn't my first time (lol). However, that time I felt like I'm so close to heaven and if only I could touch the clouds I would! Most of all I felt closer to you.

It made me cry. 

I can't help it. Not being with you still hurts like crazy. It would probably last forever. Please bear with me, July still wins as the most emotional month for me. Help me get through this day my Love. I am in pain. Please kiss these tears goodbye. I miss you Gwen. 

When  the right time comes we shall meet again. And you can expect a whole lot of hugs and kisses from me! I love you Gwyneth Harmony. Thank you for watching over me. Thank you for saving me. I know you did. You saved me from myself. When you left, I was reborn. Thank you for that sacrifice. 

Happy 4th Year in Heaven! I know you're having a Blast! I love you. 

Blowing kisses your way and hugs too. <3. 

Love,

Mama

PS

I know I said I wouldn't be writing anymore. But seems wrong not to write something about you specially on your special day. XOXO

This is officially my last entry.

 

I started this blog years ago when I lost my Baby girl Gwen. Writing about my feelings and poems that I see online about Mother's loosing their child has helped me a lot to cope up with my own loss.

 

I poured all my emotions to this blog. Honestly I can't even read back my entries... it seem like it's forever ago and it seem like such a painful story.

 

I am not religious when it comes to writing blogs. It's a first for me to write a lot of entries. But I noticed the past months that I can't think of anything to write about. It made me realized that Finally I am at Peace.

 

This year was Gwen's 3rd yr Feeding Program and I will do this for the rest of my life as a promise to Gwen. I still think about her everyday. I still have a little tug in my heart whenever I think of her. But I know that whenever I feel that tug that's just her touching my heart and letting me know that she will always be with me... that we are one and will be together again when the right time comes.

 

Gwen, Thank you for watching over me. I love you and no one can ever replace you.

 

-Mama

 

 

 

*Gwen's Feeding Program Year 3

 

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