Hi Angel...

I can't help but cry and can't help but write about it because I want to remember every moment happy or sad... if it's about you Gwen, I want to always remember.

I can now count the days that I cried thinking about you compared to the past few weeks that there's no passing day that I shed a tear for you. I guess Mommy's all the way to getting better and better. 

But just now I can't stop the tears. The usual baby Mommy Misses you and is longing for you. The pain of loosing you will never go away I think. It's gonna leave a scar in my heart that I will forever cherish.  I have to say it's bearable now Gwen because whenever I feel that sadness and that pain that makes my whole body weak I ask for God's help. I take a deep breath and think of you in a peaceful and joyful world away from pain and suffering. Yes It is indeed bearable now.

I love you my Angel Gwen. You are forever in my heart.

Gwyneth ...

An angel opened the book of life
and wrote down my baby's birth.
Then she whispered as she closed the book
"too beautiful for earth".
~author unknown

My Angel be our Guide

Deep breathes in the morning. Its my way of saying Life I'm ready for today. 

It hurts to know that there are things that you can't control and you can't protect everyone that you love. But I guess that's the beauty of life. It teaches you to be strong. To hold on to God's promise that with Him we will be just fine and even the one's that we love and  pray for everyday.

I have to say for days now my heart feels lighter than usual. Maybe because I have fully accepted that it did happened, that she's gone. What makes me smile everyday now is the thought that she's in heaven, that she looks down upon me and her Dad... that I can still talk to her and ask her to please don't get tired watching over us.