Like always I waited for the clock to strike 12 that way I can post that it's her 5th month today. My eyes felt like crying. It gave away few drops of tears. Part of me wants to let it all out and just cry my heart out. But I decided not to...
I said a little prayer for my little angel. Thanking her for always being there for me. For the amount of strength and faith that she left behind. For giving me the chance to be her Mother.
Sometimes I find myself in that moment again. I have to pull back at times and remind myself that although it did happened I also have to understand and accept that this is my reality now.
I miss you terribly Gwen. I guess I will always be missing you. But I am happy that you're in God's arms now and You will never feel pain and suffering... That thought alone gives me enough courage to accept that you are gone.
You will never be forgotten. I love you so much baby. Thank u for keeping me safe and for touching my heart whenever I feel down. Today is a bit difficult though cause I am missing you so bad :(
But for sure this will pass. The image of you with a halo makes me smile all the time and the thought of you playing around those soft looking clouds makes my heart melt and gives me the satisfaction that you are one happy angel up there!
Yogurt party for you tomorrow with April, Erol and kids.
I love you. Enjoy your 5th month up there Gwen! :hugs and kisses: from Mommy.
