Remembering that painful news that you're no longer breathing. That long walk to the delivery room. The physical pain... the pain of knowing that I will never hear you cry...
Today is your 3rd month in heaven. I am missing you everyday. I still long for you. But like what I said before I have fully accepted that you are made for heaven.
I remember that day like it was yesterday. But I'm not sad anymore baby. I said it before and I will say it again... I will be forever grateful to God that He choose me to be your Mother. I will forever remember that day as the day that I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl whose too beautiful for earth.
It has been 3 months already. It's like going to a theme park and riding the roller coaster non stop. It's Mommy's favorite ride =) So no matter how scared I was and is still is today I won't be a coward and not ride it again and again because I know that your on the other side holding on to my buckle making sure that it won't crash!
You are my one true inspiration. You gave me that super power strength to face each day and manage a smile even though my heart still breaks. You are an ever playful angel showing me things that would help me realize how worthy I am for love and respect. You're my Guardian Angel-Daughter.
I love you so much Gwyneth Harmony. Thank you for being with me all the time. For touching my heart everytime I'm feeling sad. Thank you for that special Mother-Daughter connection that we have.
I thank God for He allowed me to experience your love. You hold a special place in my heart Gwen. You kept toucing my heart and I know I will be fully healed soon. Mommy'still picking up the pieces and my Angel you never stopped helping me =)
I love you. Few hours from now your Pink party begins. I got you a cake as promised!
I closed my eyes and I swear I can see you smiling!
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